Just as I posted my last post, I felt hurt badly. Thank you for going all out to hurt me with deceit and lies. I feel more human now.




1. Plan my holiday regardless whether I'll travel alone or not, it's high time for a holiday already. BAILED!
2. Avoid getting to attached.( More than ever now )
3. Work harder, maybe in 6 months time another promotion. Can make it a pattern like "a promotion per year thingy", hmmmmm
4. Contemplate the idea of being really adventurous with others of the same gender. *ponder ponder
5. Stop thinking about nonsensical stuff. Fuck it, I like thinking about nonsensical stuff, it'll make me more cautious.
6. Read up more.
7. Exercise ( Yes ppl I know, hard to believe eh? Heck the shortest way to hell is by smoking and exercising (simultenously) your way to it ) And you ppl will live to tell the tale of a person whom exercises and met her doom at it, just becareful to omit out the fact that she was also huffing and puffing on at least 20 ciggies while having a 10 min jog only.
8. Save more dosh or at least get a part time job to support my recreational habits.
9. I've no idea already....oh yeah...completely wipe out whatever memory I have of him. It has been wiped out, du_uh.

Cryptic enough? I'm just being an arse here.




STAR WARS ( Warning: Possible spoilers for those whom hasn't seen the movie yet )

What do I have to say about the movie? Well, after missing it last week due to a flat tyre/tire, I was really psyched over watching it last night. Needless to say, after watching it, I felt really uhhmmm is there a word for it? Oh yeah, dissapointed, I mean of course the CGI and everything was great, but apart from that nothing really made it stood apart from the first 2 "prequels", being a huge Star Wars fan, I felt sorely dissapointed. Besides the cheesy and corny lines, the plot lacked substance and the acting was rather wooden too. Sighs, but at least it had a good continuation to the later episodes, in the sense if a person were to watch ep. 3 first and continue on to the 4th episode, yeah it seams through nicely.

Blogging
Alright, Star Wars aside, I am back into blogging, I've decided I shouldn't stop doing what I like just because I'm bullied into it, and I will blog till my heart's content. It totally disheartens me to find people condemning your thoughts and opinions just because its on the web, yes, you might say I'm asking for it seeing that I did air all my thoughts on the web, so therefore its for everyone to read, yes it is, as much as it is anybody's right to read, it's the same bloody right for me to blog down whatever it is my thoughts and opinions on. Agree? Hmmpp actually I couldn't be bothered already.

Cryptic Post
The feeling of being wrongly accused can cause so much of pain, but what is even more painful, is when the person responsible for it is someone you loved and care for so much, and it makes you think. Do the person knows and loves you enough to actually come up with accusations? Or has that person been misunderstood? Ignoring the pain is better, for I am already despondent.

"Well-painted passion,
You rightly suspect,
Impersonation,
The dumbing down of love,
Jaded in anger,
Love underwhelms you,
No box of chocolates,
Whichever way you fall,"

The Dumbing Down of Love

Listening to: Frou Frou Details Album




I'm bored, its too quiet, I don't even dare to do much around....but maybe that's coz its only my second day here. And I don't know why...but I just thought of not blogging for awhile...we'll just see how it goes.




Damansara or Cyberjaya? That's the question, have to admit that it's easier for me to work in Cyberjaya seeing that I stay in Bukit Jalil, and it takes only 20 to 30 mins to go to Cyberjaya, less traffic, pay toll only, but it's smacked in the middle of nowhere and furthermore I wanna reenact the Run Lola Run movie, so it will be Run Lizz Run. Groundhog Day sial. Damansara on the other hand is within the heart of civilisation which would pose problems such as, pay for parking AND toll, traffic jam, lack of working space in Shell, waking up early in the morning. I was actually up in Cyberjaya just now, it's ok, walking distance between both Shell and Atos, sighs, but the place gives me the creeps be it in ghostly figures or human ones too. I'll just see how it goes then, already ask for a transfer to Damansara, then if I get the transfer maybe a couple of months later on I'll return back to Cyberjaya.




I've been busy the whole day, and later on I will be going to 1U to get my new line, have to, coz I'm leaving the DR scene already. Anyways watched Kingdom of Heaven last night, and I think I will leave my thoughts on it til tomorrow.

This was taken in Asakusa, Tokyo. I miss Japan, regardless of how weird the people can be, I kinda miss it. Basically eventhough it is depicted in the pic that it's some kinda temple, Asakusa also is one of the nicest place to shop for trinkets and all, from the sweets and crackers that I bought to the wild boar and frog key chain that I've gotten also.




Quote of the day " A nuclear bomb doesn't discriminate ", my colleague.

Sure enough, it will just blow up, in your face, and he just given me another idea for world domination. Yeah rite, :P

I'm so sleepy, so very sleepy, and tired, I think I have to go slow on the working and going out every night bit. I can't even think about what to blog already or who to make fun of.

I have to go and find a new mobile line already, I'm currently using the company's line now, so I gotta get a new one, before the transfer. I have writer's block sial. At this moment I don't think I'm capable of even posting emo posts. Probably coz there's nothing emo I'm going through. Yeah for me, emo bug is gone. But now I already mati idea already on what to post. I know I can call upon the help of the Idea Specialist......TIM!!!!!!LOL




I don't know about you people, but I believe I've had my fair share of dicks. To be exact and precise, I don't think I wanna look at another naked male body ever again. Over the weekend I was given not only once but twice, a full monty show. Me being the smoker that I am, the balcony of my apartment would automatically becomes my beloved ashtray. So while I was happily sucking in the toxics and tar of my ciggerette, my eye caught something. In one of the apartments in the block opposite mine had a guy moping the balcony's floor. What actually caught me by surprise was that he had his whole body in the apartment behind the curtain while straining his arms to mop the floor, and then a gust of wind came by, and oh my fucking lord, I think I just burned my eyeballs out of my sockets, he was buck naked, in birthday suit, wiener all over the place, au naturel, whatever you call it. Fine, granted it was by accident the wind blew by and the curtains got lifted. What I saw next was even more astounding, the man actually stepped out into the balcony in broad daylight in spite of him parading his mandhood around. My neighbour who saw the spectacle himself was so astounded, that he went calling for his wife... " Dear come out here and look at the guy with the short schlong ". Needless to say, I ended up being scarred by the whole situation, and of course it didn't end there only, coz by today I have officially seen the ugly naked guy 3 times already on the balcony. Geez, and they said the nudity thingy in Malaysia is not allowed, I've got a freaking nudist colony at my apartments.

After that horrifying incident, I don't think I can look at a guy the same already. The whole situation is further aggravated by the fact that guy has a penchant for mopping his balcony being in the buff. EEEWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwww!!!

On a lighter note, had dinner with Irene, Eric and Hatim last night at William's. I gotta say this, if there is any mamak I love ( if ), it would be William's. It's odd to order mamak food from there, coz seriously it sucks. But the other food, like the sausages in carbonara sauce and the spaghetti, is superb. Uhmmm...yummy! And I love the Ice blended Ribena and longans, acquired a habit while having that drink also, I would actually bury all the longans in the ice and have it last after all of it is nicely steeped in ribena and becomes purple. Heheheh. Gotten the laugh of my life also, when Tim imitated voices ranging from the perasan macho to the singh fella in Usop Santorian to George the Goldfish. I believe now the blisters that Irene has gotten on her foot is further aggravated by the whole comic relief thingy. Doooppp! as Homer Simpson would say.

Later on I drop by at Anne's place and had a very refreshing conversation with Albert, about my devious plan to be the richest person on earth. Ahahahaha, but first of all I have to mastermind a way to get into the Vatican City to get the bullions of gold that the Pope claims does not exist. I think I can overcome the stupidity of the Pope, but his Swiss Guards are a troublesome lot. They're the only smart people running the whole place there, come to think of it guards dressed up in pantaloons are never much of an intellegent lot. But never fear, the art of robbing shall never be more romantic than stealing the gold from under the Pope's nose and of course using it to fund the Illuminati. Classic man. Ahahaha LOL. I love this devious mind of mine. Not to mention crazy too. And I quote Anne " Filthy lil beast ". I will have the whole crusade going after me, not only that, any other religion's jihad or holy war too. Geez, how smart can a person be to die for an idiot like all these religious figures lah? Shocks me to no end, that these normal people are being treated as if they are better than you. Well, for your information, the Pope has no immunity when he's outside his tiny lil country. LOL. Fucking salesman for religion.

Today's Forecast
Finally, you've been given a heavenly reprieve. The universe has penciled some free time into your schedule, and you'd be well advised to make the very most of it while it's available. Give that certain someone a call.

Alritey, first of all, heavenly reprieve?? Are you trying to say that God, has cancelled whatever punishment he has for me?? I thought he has a whole new funpark of torturous mechanism installed for me already, with the whole super duper roller coaster from hell, where instead of the train itself, the passanger will be hung upside down with barbed wire and given a ride through the pits of hades or something. Geez, somehow I feel so relieved already, knowing that I've be given "Heavenly Reprieval". Bah, humbug! Seriously, this is really funny and amusing, so what if coincidentally I'm a bit free at work today ( actually I've been playing around all day long ), and then what's with the "give that certain someone a call" line? Who? What? Why should I? Sheesh, I can't believe this, the world is already topsy turvy. Dunia ini sudah songsang! LOL, laugh bitch laugh! In conclusion I have only this to say, when humans start to believe in crap like astrology and religion, and not themselves, that's it, Dunia ini sudah songsang...shit I giggled everytime I say that.

Changes...hmmm..This is the last week I'll be in the office in TPM, I'll be moving either to Damansara or Cyberjaya, I prefer Cyberjaya seeing that it's closer to where I stay, but due to certain circumstances I'll try to ask for a transfer to Damansara instead. New place, new environment, new colleagues, new workload and responsibilities, new everything in short, sighs,,,,kinda scary actually but I've done this before, so I can do it again, it is for the best. So I'm actually going to ask the company to allow me to announce my position as the narcissictic analyst. LOL..sick huh? Spent the weekend, quite well I might say, had a really good dinner at The Ship with Irene and Chua on Friday, it was quite a night I would say, clubhopping between 3 clubs, got stopped at a roadblock at which upon seeing my IC the cops made stupid comments about how pretty I am, to which I nearly barked back, Of course lah, coz I'm not natan. Temper, temper dear.

I saw my very dear friend Lai Peng in UKM on Saturday and satisfied my craving for authentic Pasar Malam food which regretfully I believe only Bangi provides. *smirks I might hate that place, but I do enjoy the Pasar Malam. Had dinner later on with Tim, Yao and Chern. Yes at long last I finally met the legendary Yao, legendary for his badmouthing and nipple-tweaking which provides burps. Gross right? Rather amusing I would say. Oh Oh and also laughed at Elliot's expense though the guy is not around and he is thousands of miles away but his existence shall still remain as one of those funny aspects of life. Cheers to Elliot!

Please under no circumstances should anyone watch XXX2. It sucked. Geez, I can't believe I spent 10 bucks on that last night. IT SUCKS!!! nvm lah...sheesshh. Did some changes to moi friendster's page, new pics and all. :P And of course how can I go through the day today without quoting this " DOES HE CONCERNS HOW I"M FEEL? " .... fucking funny lah....I won't make any apologies about this to the dude who said this...I just have this to say,,,,You're weird and sad you know.

Recently I had a feedback from somebody concerning a few things, I will only say this, blogging is a way of expression and it might not always depict the person correctly, because its rather rethorical and very subjective. If you don't like the way I blog about my life or happenings, then I suggest that you stop reading my blog, because a blog at the end of the day is just a blog, it's very on the surface and of course it just gives opportunities for others to assume things. As I was once quite often told, assumption is the mother of all fuck ups. Ironic isn't it? *smirks So either the person can stop reading my blog or just don't be judgemental towards it..the choice is in his or her hands.




Interesting that I should mention this, by right I should be glad that I am going to have a permanent job with the company, and that in the organization I'm an analyst and in the other company I'm an assistant project manager. Yes I am happy ( I think ). That aside, so what's the problem, you have to admit that money is very important and that it does makes the world goes round.

Due to so many entanglements and complications which had arises from the position I'm holding now, I was put into working as a contract staff, seeing a directive from above ( presumably some ugly old s'porean chink fucktard ) proclaims that all new staff and those existing which are replacing the staff which has left the company shall be employed under a contractual basis. So, yours truly was one such case. I was new, company just got bought off by AO, and later in a few months time I soon replaced Suhana ( she left for Exxon ), thinking I could get it being permanent and all, but no, fucktard s'porean gave the directive, hence moi is still a contract staff with I might add PERMANENT STAFF'S PAY!!!!!! FUCK IT!! Now I'm not going to let them screw it up again, I've been paid normal staff pay, therefore I should be paid higher now!!! If not I will ask to be on contractual basis again with thrice the pay....yes I admit money is important to me. At least if I work hard enough, money provides security, its like my take on ciggarettes. I like smoking, I do it not because of peer preassure or whatever nonsense, I do it knowing for a fact that as long as I smoke, as long as that I can hold on to ciggarettes, which in a way very reassuring, coz at the end of the day, only I can throw them away, and that alone provides me security. Funny principle, but heck it works, for me anyways.

So underneath all this false bravado, power trips and crap, I'm actually a very insecure person if I can only rely on ciggerettes and money for security. It's a facade, and I am writing gibberish, because for the first time in weeks, I actually have free time at work. Makes you wonder right, do we actually work in a certain job because of the money or the joy of it regardless of your pay.....pah! Humbug!

So who was it that commented that I had nothing to bitch about now?




Latest lowdown of the past week, went to the Salsa Night thingy with Irene, Chua and Desmond. It was pretty cool, now I have to check up my schedule to see when I can go for the classes. I absolutely love the instructor, she looks so good on the dance floor.

Saturday night saw me, hatim, ma'eka, josie, ninien and naomi at the Thirst Malaysian thingy,,,,Roger Sanchez,,,it was ok, slow but ok.

On Sunday I went grocery shopping with anne and irene, for the monday dinner cookout.

Monday: Cookout day.
After hours of slaving on the stove, me, anne and irene have come up with, Ceaser's Salad, Mashed potatoes, fried marinated chicken and risotto. It felt great having Albert, Gerald, BK, Andy, Hatim, Irene, Anne, and Chris around for dinner. And Irene please say thanks to Chris for his lovely wine. Sorry peeps for the lack of furniture, but that I hope will be rectifed soon in the near future.

The past couple of days, I gotten sick while balancing myself between 2 jobs, and lo and behold I've gotten into CSI. Yessshhh I am now the CSI chick, but I'm also contracted to the other Company. hehehehe....will be travelling a lot I hope.