Well, that's life
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
12:43 PM
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I have a new thing for this band from Indonesia, they're called Homogenic, got them from Junk. Cool band, great vocals, it's a mix of electronica bliss, with haunting vocals.

The challenge ended, feeling rather left out, seeing that I wasn't there, but hey, work is more important, 'sides signs of the monsoon is already showing, and it's whetting my appetite already for the waves. Be it rain or shine, all of us will be there. Of course, there is also a chance that this year raya, I won't be here, maybe either at Padang, or Mentawaiis or Dreamland. Downhill skateboarding is not really helping with my withdrawal symptoms of surfing, but it is making my surfing alot better.

The guy, hmmm, I have been freaking out alot, and he has been nothing but understanding, for that I really learn to appreciate him alot. Informing Mr Evil of his existence took alot of guts on my part. Heck, it was even more nerve wrecking for me, when they finally meet, and both knowing how important each other is in my life, decided unbeknownst to everybody, to behave. Yeah, they actually behaved, heck I was even on my best behaviour. For me, it was and still is, very important to have Mr Evil's approval on him. Yeah I know, we are just seeing each other but well it doesn't hurt to get an approval in the early stages right. Now the other nerve wrecking bit, informing my lil boys of him, my 'son' Oki, has already met him, and doesn't seem to be that comfortable with him. True to our lifestyle, Oki has already started putting in abit of a distance, an automatic surfer's behaviour, which some might think of it as something good, but for me, it is one of the many reasons why I'm freaking out over this.

I am so used to hanging out and being affectionate with my lil boys, and well, it is an automatic reaction when one of us or the other is seeing somebody, we would keep the affection bit on an all low. Yeah, it doesn't change the fact that we are still very important to one another, but it does make some things seemed alot harder, albeit more rules and regulations in interacting with one another. The plus side of this though, is that you know they respect your space.

Oh well, that's life, and well, we shall see how they react to this bit of news in the near future. Phrases like...

" What the hell, you're actually seeing somebody, wow the world is indeed coming to an end "

" What about Lon? " ( What the fuck!! So what about the lil brat! )

" You're kidding right, you're actually not having a fling now, so how long do you think this'll go? "

" Good to see you're finally settling down, welcome to the Ridiculously Loyal Surfer's club, where we don't cheat nor do we break hearts, so when are we going to have an induction for the man into the Surfer's Partner Org, ooh wait a minute, your man will prolly be the only man there, HAHAHAHAHAHA " ( I am not kidding you, this is for real, seeing that I don't mix so much with the female surfers, I am rather like one of the boys, so sweetie, if it does ever goes further than what we are having now, I am so sorry but you'll be like one of the girls. )

" You?! OHMYGAWD this is fucking funny "

" This is a tragedy, no more cockteaser, daymn! "

These are only a few, but I know I will be given shit for this, oh well, that's life.


Lizz



This is what I've been missing
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
6:40 PM
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On a very me note, this is what I have been missing while some of the snowboarders I know are having fun, down under at Snowpark NZ. The Hemisphere Challenge Week. Bloody hell!

Two hemisphere, two photographers, and six absolutely great snowboarders, The Hemisphere Challenge. WELLS!!!!!!!!



Lizz



The all time lingering question, my needs and shoes.

4:11 PM
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Question: How do you cope with having a person in your life when you are so used to being happy by yourself?

I honestly don't know, but this is what I have been asking myself for awhile now, I am so used to running off here and there without having to think of another person, his feelings, his opinions, him overall. Now I find myself disturbed by this, all I could think of is how it will disrupt the peacefullness of my life now, the waves, the surf, the running about in assisting my boys. I find myself feeling worried and nervous telling Mr Evil about him. Not that we have anything concrete yet, but it's pretty much obvious where it might go. It will be unfair on his part, if I do not mention how supportive he is over whatever I do, me being all outdoor-sy and a surfer. Unfair too, had I not state the fact, that he is probably the most mature guy I've been out with so far. Some might think I am being biased seeing that I am kind of seeing him, therefore, my judgement over him is clouded. Well truth is, I don't know whether I like him that much yet, or I even like him on that level. Yes, the attraction is obviously there, but that's about it. In fact, at this current moment what with the most recent conversation with him, my need to bolt for the door has been growing. I don't like the fact that I could still be bothered by emotions after severing it off for quite awhile back. That is not logical at all, and I have conditioned myself to be logical over anything. I don't like the fact that I could still be bothered by trivial things, when by right I shouldn't. I don't like the fact, his actions or lack of it could instigate such a reaction from me. It shouldn't for I am by right detached after all, or should it? What am I then to myself? Am I as detached as I would like to think? Or have it been a defense mechanism all this while, and finally somebody came along and was able to bring it down unintentionally. Either way, only I alone can answer this.

My needs? Surfing's all that matters to me now, and work of course. I am willing to slave away at work just to get that extra bit for surfing. One day, I hope, I will be anywhere but here, with the waves becking, and the sea breeze against my face. Everyday of my life. Till my last breath. Of course I want to shop like nobody's business, like how I did the other day, ohmygawd RM 800 in just an hour, over only 2 items. But hey it looks great on me. The shoes and the 3/4 pants. Speaking about shoes. *Laughs evilly. At long last I found the perfect ones, from 9 West. I can't find any pictures of the one I bought, as mine is black, but I found a white one. It's cool, 3 1/2 inch, so bloody comfy, I am not kidding you. It didn't bite my feet, and it doesn't slip when I run or strut.


The pic doesn't do it any justice, I think there is still a couple of pairs left in the 1 Utama outlet. Though the smallest size in stock was 7. Saleslady claims that it was selling like hot cakes, I can only imagine, seeing that not only it looks great, but wow the amount of aprovals was immense indeed.

So yeah, I am rather a vainpot.


Lizz



Of leather seats and allergies
Monday, September 18, 2006
12:58 PM
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It's scary, 31 year olds, though this particular one is a bit weird. It has been a game between us both, him trying to place me under some category or gange the situation, and me doing the same too. It had been a game of wits between us, whereby we want to outwit and outplay each other. In his own words, it was intriguing, it was " Poser, poser, poser, poser, poser, then BAM! in comes you " he said.

Needless to say, yeah I am intellectually attracted to him. I have been given lectures from left, right, centre, upside down, inside out about him. Everybody seems to like him and thinks he's a great guy. Yeah, he's nice, funny, and yeah we are comfortable with each other, that I pick at my most recent wipe out scabs in front of him, heck my scabs was how we met anyways. I proudly showed him my downhill skateboarding wound on my knee, to which he was intrigued and grossed out, intrigued by how proud and not embarrased I was by the monstrosity I have on my knee, and grossed out by how ugly and huge it was.

Funny bit though, about him, is rather how he copes with me, he's more than happy to oblige in alot of things. Alot says he's a catch, probably is if defined by the more run of the mill average malaysian girl, whereby his beamer, apartment, position and many other materialistic factors is more of a blueprint as a catch for them. But my close gal pal did say, as long as he makes me happy, and he's understanding, smart, a real gentleman, that's what counts over everything else. So in that sense, character wise he's pretty much of a catch too there, I guess.

Yeah, the age gap, definitely bothers me, I am only perhaps 2 years younger than his sis. We clicked, we are comfortable with each other, we are obviously attracted to each other, and yet this is a recipe for disaster I would say. Though, alot would say he is exactly what I need. More than often he'll surprised me enough. In fact, my new found allergies either for leather seats or the solution used on leather seats, has somehow got him worried, hence scampering around to find another solution and a decent looking cover for his car's leather seats. Yeap, I am allergic to his car, I'll break into a rash over time. What does that say about things then? My body rejects his car even. Others would probably die to be in my place, but I've always wanted to be a yuppie that drives a performance car 'stead of beamers, benz, and the likes. But that's me.

Though, the question

" So do you want this whatever we have to be exclusive? " was popped by me. Upon which he answered, it's up to me, but on his end, yes, he would like it to be exclusive. I answered neither yes nor no, for I don't know.

The thing is, I don't think I can give him much, I am afterall a person who dabbles in a totally different lifestyle, yes I do work, like any normal being would, but I am also a surfer, who doesn't believe in relationships at all. So where does that leave me? My close gal pal quipped, " Sweetie, you have to give it a try at least ", well we shall see shall we, allergies and all.


Lizz



Penguin and Britney
Monday, September 11, 2006
4:29 PM
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A new kitten, ash-ey, bluish, greyish color, named Penguin.

Britney, the oldest of them all, died today. *sighs.

Pa left home again, so what's new?

And, I have been offered to model for a new car mag, and I've been asked to do a portfolio. Maybe. Feeling ackward.

'Sides, car mag are sluttish, though a few had said their piece concerning the news.

The guy: Go for it, if it pays well, go for it, it's not like you have to kiss and lick the cars you know.
Moi: If it's an integra, celica or impreza, I'll lick and kiss it free of charge bra.
Moi: Though I'd rather lick and kiss a hot hunky male model.
The guy: Like me

hhmmmm....no words for him there.

Mr Evil on the other hand, said this;

So now the whole nation can gawk at what I have been looking at for the past year or so.

Trust Mr Evil to say this.

Personally I have a humoungous crush on The guy. Nice bod, especially when you see him sliding downhill, and I am not the only who stares and gawk, the other girls and GUYS do it too. Almost hot, with my beer goggles on I said to him once, and he just smirked at me. Weird huh?


Lizz



I wanna bela this creature here
Friday, September 08, 2006
5:47 PM
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I wanna bela this....I wanna bela this....it is so cute...i wanna bela it....no I don't mean you Benjy, dream on.



But mana nak cari? This weekend I am going to adopt a kitten, yay yay. I will train it to sit quietly in the hoods of all my surf jackets or sweaters. Then I can bring it around for freebording, or downhill skateboarding or surfing in fact.


Lizz



The funniest bit about blogging
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
2:33 PM
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The funny bit comes, when you don't feel like blogging, in fact I am sitting down here, trying to string my sentences, but it's not working somehow. Maybe, just maybe I no longer like the direction of this blog, it's like an open book to a certain extent, though I haven't blog much about the daily mundane things that happens, well maybe not so mundane, but I find myself deviating from it, which I like actually.

Alterations and a total revamp is bloody overdue for this blog, or maybe I'll stop blogging, it's kinda hard to blog when most of the funny and amusing things that happens to you has to be private and confidential, due to your relations to some of the people. It's better left unknown for fear that some might just take advantage of it, i.e " Hey Lizz, seeing that you know, you're chummy with them, could you like hook me up to ride for them? ", wow, heck even I don't ride with them. I'll avoid it at all costs, coz pros are snobs, to be honest. It's just that I learn to ignore them whenever they try to go diva on me, and they've learn to see that I really don't care who they are, and I like doing things by my own, so we kinda learn through time to put up with each other's misgivings, like I break promises at my whim and them trying to bully me. Tete for tete I believe. But we've been pretty laidback and lackadaisical about it. The worst I'll do is probably just take off on my own, and lay low under the radar for a few days, at first they were quite worried about it, but they soon learn that it's my way of coping with annoyances. I soon learn that what they do such as bullying me playfully and teasing me endlessly is their way of coping with people who really doesn't care about who they are and doesn't suck up to them.

I admit that I do know some of the big names in the surfing community personally. It's no big deal I think, I know some of them are never sober, but it comes within the territory I believe. They don't make any fuss about me smoking too much, I don't make any fuss about them smoking up either. They'll impart some really good nifty surfing tips for me, I'll impart some really good nifty IT tips for 'em too. It's a two way thing, I believe.

But somehow, you will get involved in a team that you find hard working with, coz they have been with each other for years, and then, you on the other hand, has always been able to cope and work by yourself, a one man army. It's hard, especially when they don't bother with helping out but they scold you when you're not aware about certain things, which is their responsibility to impart. But you soon learnt to not care and just do your own thing, and well just wake up every morning saying this to yourself " You love doing what you do and no one can stop you ". And that's how life is. Coz nobody will make things easy for you, except yourself.


Lizz