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Had a great time with peeps, thanks Irene and Anne for the lovely Miaow frame, and Sharine for the cuddly bear bear, which Chern and me has christened as Dawson Patches Yusof, Dawson Patches Joseph sounds fucking pariah man. Thank you, Dkat, Josh, Zoey, Dids, BiJork, Wong, Sharine, Anne, Irene, and Chern, oh but of course we cannot forget Splatspit, the really really closeted gay, thanks for coming for the dinner.

And look at my funky-ass birthday cake.




Heheheheh,,,,that's what you get when you're not the kind of person who has a sweet tooth. But waheeyy it's pretty cool I think, and furthermore, what sort of a birthday cake that has Chocolate Fudge, New York Cheese and Marble cheesecake to make it up to a cake? Mine of course!!hahahaha....Of course all credits of originality would have to go to Chern

To top it off, the jazz band was good, loved it. Needless to say, it was a good night, with friends, jazz, Jamie Cullum's soothing poppy voice in the background and good food. ;)




Dancing and prancing around in the office before heading out to KLCC for good old coffee with two extraordinarily cute idiots....ahahahahah...sorry 1/4 Jappo and LostCause...*smirks at how clever I am at giving names....lame!

*prance around to "Girls" by Prodigy.

Imagine how it would be,
To be at the top,
Making cash money,
Go and tour all,
Around the world,
Tell stories about,
All the young girls,

*loving it...yeah...I am wallowing in the fact that I am happily 24 years old...

Girls!

Travel fast,
Have a blast,
Travel fast,
Make it last,
Girls, Girls Round the world!

Yeah man....I am older and I am glad that I have achieved what's said in "Girls"...wwoooohoooooo.....including the looking around at all the young girls....vaguely hearing to Spud voicing..." Come out, come out of the closet, there's nothing to be afraid "...hahahahahah....

What am I doing: Dancing around to Prodigy
Listening: GIRLS!!!
Craving for: ......I don't know....sex??neah...hahahahahah
Feeling: Man, how do you term how I feel huh? Happy or just simply crazy mad...ahahahah




It's still very cold, sighs. I love Irene. I love Anne. I adore my friends. I adore my colleagues. I like working. I like lazing around too. I like a hard working boy. I like a comical boy. I like being with friends. I like being alone too. I like performance cars. I like clothes. I like to think of myself as being very boyish at times. I like to think of myself very girly too at other times. I like to think of myself standing firmly behind what I believe in, I like to think that in other terms, that means I'm as stubborn as a mule ( Heehaww! ). I like to blog rubbish endlessly at times. I like to not blog at all at times, and go on a hiatus. I like Stigmatized by The Calling. I like Everything by Lifehouse. I like fighting for what I believe in. I like having others fighting alongside me for what I believe in. I like having him around when he could be. I like being around my friends when I want to. I like trying giving chances to people when they trully deserve it. I like not doing anything about people when I think they don't deserve anything from me. I like trying to lead some semblance of a normal life. I like having loads of dough when I didn't have that normal life. I like not having to explain my actions to people. But I'd like to have the chance to explain everything to you. Still very cold, but it's OK.




It's cold, my ankles are cold, I feel like tucking my legs underneath my wide skirt for warmth, but that would be unethical in the office. My mary janes has seen better days I think, should try to at least try in making an effort to make my mary janes look better. Sleeping early last night didn't seem to work. I'm sleepy as hell, maybe I should have a catnap. SAP's interface looks damn cheesy and lame. KL looks good from the 27th Floor, better from the 40th Floor. I like a boy who smells nice. I like a boy whom has a charming smile. I love KL after a heavy downpour of rain, it smells clean and washed. I love driving in KL in the evenings while, enjoying good old jazz or lounge-y kind of songs alongside the pitter patter of the rain drizzling down in the background. I like Jamie Cullum. I like Jason Wade. I like snuggling up to him. I like snuggling up to you. I like Mary Janes. I like pointy stillettoes. I like books. I like movies. I like you. I like you too. *smiles as I tuck my legs underneath my skirt, not caring.




My Wishlist.

1. Leave the country to have it all out in the Security Industry.
2. To get rid of this bad luck streak that I've been having since the start of this month.
3. To be given leverage to sit for the CISSP exams. Stupic ISC2.
4. Bargrooves...I love them CDs.
5. To feel this content for good.




For some of us Yuletide came early, that is for those who went for Mia’s performance at Oasis in Bangsar last night, heheheheheh. Right, Dids? Great place albeit a bit noisy and a funky sound system, the fact that it’s open air might have played a role in the funky system issue. Well there are always other performances to go. Saw a junior from high school, small world it seems seeing that she’s also Reza's friend. Met a new friend also named Diana. Kinda hard to call Dids Diana. Hahahahahahah. In the midst of everything gotten a call from 2 persons who claimed that they missed me…aaawww…hope I can see you people later. Very nice of them to give me a call.

Bimbo mode now ( imagine me saying everything in that bimbo twang, well if you can’t at least try to imagine Smelliot doing his whole snap snap finger snap bimbo talk to the hand thingy and with his whole damn the macho himbo voice, sorry schnooks I just can’t resist this. ):

I think, having like bandages around your arm is like really vvvveeeeeerrrryyyy fashionable, it’s like so kewl. I mean like hey who goes around spotting those nowadays anyways, like du_uh the whole wearing an armlet thingy is like ssooooo 80’s. And what about those ribbon belts, girls take it from yours truly, I like did that whole ribbon thingy from March and now only you’re getting it, that’s like soooo…( ponders ponders while trying to count the months between March to November with toes, ahh forget it this is sooooo tedious ) now where was I, oh yeaah, that is like sooooo a few months back. Ok like this is soooooo lammmeeee, I'm actually like you know worrying my perfectly coiffed virgin naturally ashen brown coloured hair over nerds...like hmmpphh....*flicks hair while walking straight into a tiang lampu.

I can't do this anymore...anyways..before anybody ask me about my bandages again, yours truly had the opportunity to get to know the racks that was holding the routers and servers abit better than most do, where me being the klutz that I am, toppled 'gracefully' albeit like a fatty bom bom into the whole chaos of equipment. Hey it's cool to sport around bandages everywhere and feed yourself painkillers coz yeah its fucking painful. *Ouch

Ah....I've gotten the opportunity to drive that Satria R3 last night, hehehehehe....yes yes Josh and Dkat, I've managed to get Dids and Wong back in 1 piece. Sweet ride for a malaysian made car. Good handling, yeah, but I still love the Subaru Impreza WRX STI, but I wouldn't mind owning an R3. It's pretty good, and waaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy cheaper. Thank you Wong, for being such a dear in picking me up for the night out last night. For that I will send you to Pudu tonight. Heheheh.

Oh yeah...finally to just finish up all this bimbo-ness of mine. I would like to proclaim that scars are sooooooooooooo in and I love flouncy skirts from MANGO. Heheheh

Jay, you win, hands down. Take over the whole thing, I'm washing my hands off this charade already, I want a normal life. You can tell him about everything, the nights I dissappeared, everything. I don't care. I'm not angry, resentful, bitter or angsty towards you. You will always be one of the brightest kids I've ever come across, I just hope it won't be your own undoing one day. After the whole fiasco, and months of deliberating, yeah I have nothing to lose except my chance at life. If god willing, even though my hard work these past few years didn't exactly pay off, I guess He will provide a better way for me, coz I did try at least. I've been detached and void of a lot of things for far too long, and I'm glad that there were 2 angels that made me realized that, thanks Dids and that younger lil boy (who at one point in his life spotted Cloud's hair do, dang!). I can't do much about my parent's failling marriage, coz at the end of the day only they can make it work, I've done my best about religion ( my mummy is actually OK with what I believe in, *smiles happily ), I no longer care about the things that I hear from people who knows my ex about me, being called a slut and golddigger, doesn't bother me, it just doesn't, coz I know I wasn't all of that, and the moments when I could be myself, I gave nothing but love to him. If he or others think otherwise, it's not really my business anymore is it? So Jay, I'm taking charge and this time I'm not letting myself to be a victim of circumstances anymore. And hey, just coz, we're no longer on the same team, doesn't mean I've stopped adoring you nor cutting out the invitation to go to Church with me whenever we can. Hehehehhehehe, though you do make the most adorable pouty faces when we go. I wouldn't miss that for all the flouncy MANGO skirts in the world, well maybe for a couple of those lovely Mary Janes that I saw at Nine West. *Giggles.


OOOOHHHHH AND I SO LOVE KEVIN AND KELL!!!!!!!!



A comic strip about a taboo marriage between a predatory She-Wolf and a prey-like He-Rabbit. Really cool and lots of character building as the comic developed through the years. Yeap it has been around for 10 years.

Currently listening to: Jamie Cullum - I'm Glad There Is You ( *sighs in sappy happiness )

"said I many times, love is an illusion,
a feeling result of confusion
with knowing smile and blasé sigh,
a cynical so and so, am I

I feel so sure, so positive,
so utterly unchangeably certain
though I never was aware of loving you
'til I suddenly realised there was love in you and oh..."




Was going through stuff and stumbled upon these:-


" Many miracles, however, are not a change to the normal course of human events; they are found in God's ability and desire to sustain and nurture people through even the worst situations. Somewhere along the way, I stopped demanding that God fix the problems in my life and started to be thankful for His presence as I endured them " -- Lisa Beamer

" God I'm not trying to rule the roost, I don't want to be the king of the mountain. I haven't meddled where I have no business or fantasised of grandiose plans. I've kept my feet on the ground, I've cultivated a quiet heart. Wait. For God. Wait, with hope. Hope now; Hope always " -- Psalms I don't remember which one. *giggles.

Amen.


On a lighter note, at long last I saw Reza performing, and I too met a groupie of his, who actually knows his songs by heart. I'm very surprised. But heck Reza was good. Went to watch the Singer Songwriter thingy at No Black Tie with Dids. Met her Sarawakian friend too, Lisa if I remember correctly whom also performs in the indie scene. Went all the way up to KLIA with Dids though I was already coming down with some kinda flu or something. Went for a blood test, thank goodness not dengue. Sorry Chern I fong feng kei on you. Didn't mean too, thought I could still brave the harsh blasting windy air of One Utama with you but I couldn't. I literally crumpled to bed after my brunch do with Wid. Oh well, the viral flu is slowly dissipating but other kind of troubles are lurking now. Driving up to KLIA does bring back alot of memories, good ones and guilt ridden ones.




Throughout the span of a rather boring ( yeah right ), non dramatic ( wait wait I can see the look of disbelief ahahahahah ), oh well, better be honest about it, therefore throughout my rather unbelievable, dramatic, tumultuous and yet never mundane life, I've come across favourite and non favourable quotes from alot of people ranging from the flabbergastedly insane to the rather sweet ones, from witty lines to rather lame-o ones. And here there are in no random order.

1. A man is capable of breaking your heart to pieces and piece them back together, and smash it up again, because of their sadistic streak. ( Well said and strung up Mom, I am the living proof of that )

2. You're a goddess in pigtails ( Jeez at that age I thought that was sweet, now, just down lame man, sorry Fugly Fred )

3. Every time is twiggy time....Loooook, a ship!!! ( I can still imagine your expression whenever you said this, Babe dear )

4. Lu lu lu lu...lu luuuuuu...*to the tune of Space Goofs ( Babe thanks for all the times you sang that for me before we stepped into the exam hall, muaxx )

5. Kiddoink!!!! ( Yesh I was called that a long long time ago )

6. You are all peanuts! ( Of course we are Chern, *whispers to everyone we'd better comply if not it might aggravate Chern's severe case of Schizophrenia )

7. I'm falling for you. ( *sighs )

Birthday Shout Out

Happy Birthday Quentin Mapphy Duncan, yesh I remembered 11/11/81, when a really fat lardy baby came to wreak havoc in this world.

*Curtsies and saunters off.




Ok quick update....

Mia's voice was superb, Corpse Bride was well...I don't know...coz mentally I was elsewhere...Doom was well...uhhmmm novelty fact number 1 or probably the only one,,,,first person shooter mode for maybe 10 minutes. The exorcism of Emily Rose is Penghalauan hantu Emily Rose in Malay. The Esther Kaiser Quartet jazz watchmacallit was ok only. I haven't been sleeping much for a couple of months already, I left Shell already, last friday being my last day. Might be working in KL next, don't really care already. La Gourmet was good. Polar bears are cute to necros who are into bestiality like Dead Raccoon Dude. Manly men love cocks...uhhmm i meant Roosters....uhhmmm like whatever. What is Sodomy in Russian? Uhhmmm I'd rather not say anything about that. I'm tired and in need of a holliday seeing that I'm being cold towards alot of people now. Alot happened but I forgot most of it already. Yeah to the ppl I left last week, sorry I wasn't around alot, but it couldn't be helped coz to be frank I hate goodbyes. Be seeing you guys around.

I dislike festivals, whatever it is especially if it plays really bad music, well Christmas is alright I guess.
I dislike really perasan ppl,,,and I mean it when I say I really dislike perasan ppl who well tries to salvage whatever pride you have by brewing more perasan-ness vibes about it, coz in case you haven't noticed I have totally cut off whatever ties needed, but I will be placid and lackadaisical if you are around, coz I couldn't be bothered. You know who you are, don't brew anymore shit, unless you really don't care about me opening all the can of worms I have against you.
I dislike busybodies, really the world would be a better place without your kind.
I dislike having ppl on my case every now and then, just cause I am not in a relationship, that they have to resort to matchmaking me and I have to come up with some ingenious plan to keep their trap shut.
I dislike Islam. Bah! There you go! It's a fucked up stupid ass religion that pisses me off from the day I learnt to question it, so that would make like, what, maybe a good 18 years of my life.
I dislike hypocritical ppl, who were at one point so close to you and all of a sudden have a tendency to pass judgement on you based on your actions.
I especially dislike explaining my actions. Period.
I dislike being seen as having predatory insticts, and some random dude being victimised by me. So men, pls spare me from being called a predator and stay away from me, regardless how interesting it is to thaw ice queens. Down DHL Dude down. You too, guy from bangsar who made a fool of himself in front of my friends last week.
I dislike knowing that my actions hurts others. To my best friend, Babe dear, I am so sorry. So I am predatory.
I dislike alot of things now. SO SUE ME!